robot_courtney

My life is weird and I think too much. My anxiety has been absolutely nuts, which makes me think even more about stupid things than I already am. I doubt things too much, which makes me think of a lot of things in my past that I shouldn't be. I've been doubting just about everything. I've been really nostalgic lately, which makes things even worse. I miss a lot of things and a lot of people, and it's making me rethink a lot of my choices which will not end up good. It never has. I don't know how to move on, and that's exactly what I need to do. Not just from one thing, but from a lot of things. I don't know how to do this. 

Things are so flipping weird right now. Whatever type of funk I am in, needs to leave. 

 Well, I just told dan that he doesn't get aiden anymore after today. Why is this my life? 

 I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I'm disconnected from almost everything, including myself. I've been thinking too much. I've been sick for about four days now, and the sick feeling in my stomach wont leave. Aiden waking up at 5:30 this morning isn't helping anything, either.  And of course, I decided to write this entry when I really don't have time to finish it, and that is going to bug me. I just really need the sunshine. 

 Welcome back into my life, livejournal. 

People really disgust me.

ashley and i are talking again?

what is it about being best friends that makes it impossible to be friends again no matter what happens?

i like it.

i am scared about telilng dan, but i guess i can't really keep it a secret any longer.

haha, i like the halloween version of livejournal.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MICHELLE!

seriously, can people be a little more immature?

dan & i got in a fight with some (ex)friends and now one of them is dragging my sister into it and it is so stupid. what does my little sister have to do with any of this? oh, yeah, absolutely nothing. and, of course, you idiot, she is defending me, she is my sister. that’s what they do. good try though.

and why don’t you just keep on lying, i know you think you are really sneaky and good at lying, but you really aren’t. but maybe if you keep working on it, people will start believing you (although, i doubt it). and i’m glad you have “made SO many friends in lax” because you have lost every one you had here (yes, even jordan and beeler are pissed). you fucked up, and i hope when your little relationship ends, you know, like when she gets sick of you and moves on, or perhaps even cheats on you(again), i hope your new friends are there for you, because none of us will be. have a good life.

(even though the people that is about will never read this, i don’t care, it feels good to get it off my chest.)




*i need to see some of you guys before i go crazy*